affliction

Remember from when i was reading Job, i remember how hard Job
kept it together, despite losing everything that he ever had.
Family, comfort of friends (sort of), wealth, and even his own life
to a certain extent.
at this point in my life, i consider myself to be poor physically,
im in poor health, and i recently injured myself.
I didnt goto enact lock-in, i didnt go fellowship with friends,
and Im falling fast behind scripture reading as well as daily devotionals.

man, am i a poor example of a Christ-follower, let alone, a crusader.

these days, ive been feeling down because of my health reasons.
on top of it all, finances have been difficult to say the least.
so much mis-communications, so much let-downs, and on top of it all,
im struggling in my own personal relationship with God.
and, the cherry on top of this sundae of disappointment, pursuing
somethings tend to be on the top of my order of "importance".

all i can think about is, despite Apostle's paul affliction, he persevered
and we've received blessings from his letters and his ministry.
looking at Job, we see how one can say praise the Lord despite his
problems and lack of "blessings".

then i look at myself and say,
fffff.

what can i complain about?
im not persecuted, my physical 'illnesses' arent permanent,
and, i still have life ahead of me.

flip diggin' dog gone it.

i need to take each mountain, one step at a time.

affliction? psh. i say, Jesus is greater than all my affliction, greater than my pains.