I've been eating out so much....
everyday i have eaten out since like, i think saturday.
from sushi to yardhouse to bj's to norm's ..
i think my body is confused.
so, right now, ive lost in total 25 lbs.
i think my body is confused cause ive been eating
really BAD and then REALLY good.
i think i seriously need to get back into the diet,
but for some reason i keep ending up eating with friends.
i need to stop eating with friends.. save money... etc. etc.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
This has been the biggest thing thats been eating me up:
choices that i have to make.
It's so easy for me to follow rules and regulations,
that, i've grown accustomed to it.
If someone told me to go witnessing, i would go.
If not, i know the consequences - possible eternal damnation of someone else.
oh well.
But, with choices in career and life, its something that i cannot choose
for some reason. sigh.
So, yesterday i thought about this :
"My will is stronger than anyone else's will for me.
I live however I want to live, but it's killing me.
Sad enough, I choose to be who I am.
I am killing myself. "
When we, as human beings, if we are to choose ourselves over God,
we are simply going to keep on dying, only sadness and disappoint awaits us.
Luckily, for those that loves God and is loved by God,
we have something to look forward to.
and right now, i look forward to two things - serving God and growth.
I was so caught up in "love life", that i forgot the Love of my Life - God.
I came to the conclusion that families only exist to worship God -
if husband and wife cannot glorify God, share the love of God, AND
love others, there's no point in the relationship.
one can achieve it by themselves. seriously.
some relationships are actually stumbling each other from this,
and to them i say, break up that relationship....
ANYWAYS :D
thats my standard of relationship. i dont expect anyone to follow
with it but me.
So, i found my "list" of things i want in my wife.
it went from 23 -> 3, which did not include the standard,
"must be Christian", or "must love God". =P
1. Willing to share Christ's love to strangers
Basically, one of my biggest struggles in life is to share Christ's love to
strangers. I hate meeting new people, and if someone can initiate
relationships, i'll leave that up to my wife. yea, im being a pansy.
leave me alone.
2. Selfless-ness, not selfish-ness
simply put, shes a person that puts other's wants ahead of hers.
This doesnt mean that she simply gives all her money away without
thinking about herself, but, if she is able, she'll do the best with what she
has and gives the rest to people. The best way to think about this is,
shes has to be a woman of sacrifice. She does care for herself,
but if she has to sacrifice, she will.
3. willingness to feed others before she feeds herself.
I think it is similar to #2, but, this is something more precise.
i believe that God has called me to feed others and to give to others.
I believe that giving food to others is one of the best things we can do
for others. I believe that by giving food, we can share Christ's love.
So, she has to have this same trait with me.
God, reveal this woman to me :)
choices that i have to make.
It's so easy for me to follow rules and regulations,
that, i've grown accustomed to it.
If someone told me to go witnessing, i would go.
If not, i know the consequences - possible eternal damnation of someone else.
oh well.
But, with choices in career and life, its something that i cannot choose
for some reason. sigh.
So, yesterday i thought about this :
"My will is stronger than anyone else's will for me.
I live however I want to live, but it's killing me.
Sad enough, I choose to be who I am.
I am killing myself. "
When we, as human beings, if we are to choose ourselves over God,
we are simply going to keep on dying, only sadness and disappoint awaits us.
Luckily, for those that loves God and is loved by God,
we have something to look forward to.
and right now, i look forward to two things - serving God and growth.
I was so caught up in "love life", that i forgot the Love of my Life - God.
I came to the conclusion that families only exist to worship God -
if husband and wife cannot glorify God, share the love of God, AND
love others, there's no point in the relationship.
one can achieve it by themselves. seriously.
some relationships are actually stumbling each other from this,
and to them i say, break up that relationship....
ANYWAYS :D
thats my standard of relationship. i dont expect anyone to follow
with it but me.
So, i found my "list" of things i want in my wife.
it went from 23 -> 3, which did not include the standard,
"must be Christian", or "must love God". =P
1. Willing to share Christ's love to strangers
Basically, one of my biggest struggles in life is to share Christ's love to
strangers. I hate meeting new people, and if someone can initiate
relationships, i'll leave that up to my wife. yea, im being a pansy.
leave me alone.
2. Selfless-ness, not selfish-ness
simply put, shes a person that puts other's wants ahead of hers.
This doesnt mean that she simply gives all her money away without
thinking about herself, but, if she is able, she'll do the best with what she
has and gives the rest to people. The best way to think about this is,
shes has to be a woman of sacrifice. She does care for herself,
but if she has to sacrifice, she will.
3. willingness to feed others before she feeds herself.
I think it is similar to #2, but, this is something more precise.
i believe that God has called me to feed others and to give to others.
I believe that giving food to others is one of the best things we can do
for others. I believe that by giving food, we can share Christ's love.
So, she has to have this same trait with me.
God, reveal this woman to me :)
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