recap

As the year goes on by, im recapping about what i did this year.
first 6 months - personally, i think it was my dryest moment.
i didnt serve that well on campus, i didnt serve that well on church,
and my personal spiritual life was wack. sigh. i felt so unashamed
to call myself a Christian at that time.
i think i also gained like 15+ pounds.

next 5 months - i wanted so much more things to do with God.
Maybe i had ulterior motives, maybe i was selfish, but i felt
that i seriously did alot better, but, honestly, it wasnt enough.

December - thats when things kicked in. Though i sinned greatly,
and though i failed, God used me and God continued to use my
struggles and pains to teach me about His mercy and Grace.

as the year is ending, what awaits me this year?
a new calling? a new car? new relationships?

Honestly, HONESTLY.... just worshiping God is enough :)

remainder

there are times when i wish some people wouldnt tell me what i didnt want to know
there is a saying, ignorance is bliss, and, truthfully, sometimes it is.. sigh..
maybe its a lie, maybe its a truth, but whatever it is, i did not need to know

but, the reason why i call this post remainder, is because no matter what,
God will be the remainder.
Relationships are awesome, but, God will outlast them.
Money and enjoyment are great, but God's will is stronger and will remain.

with that realization, i can go to the next day with all my baggage and say,
"yes, baggage this, baggage that, and yet, God will still remain."

God is the first and the Last..
no matter what, if we trust in the Lord, He'll remain..
ergo..

His will > all of ours.
His will will remain.

and yet, why do i pursue my will so much? :[

God, i pray that though i continue to burden and struggle with the life You gave me,
i will rejoice in the fact that You gave me this life, and that, You are greater than
any burdens i have.
You are the remainder.